whensilvermakesit

2012-02-19T09:44:00.000-08:00

always below the mark. never good enough. sigh.

got called a fucker. sigh. feeling very lonely and unappreciated. you were a huge mistake. i regret everything because you turned around to only make my life miserable. thanks for changing fact to fiction. and the worst part is that there’s nothing to do to make up for it. i just want to hide myself from some people as all i feel when I walk by them is that they’re judging me for what I’ve done. it’s as if im scarred with this label. i can’t take it. i just want to leave this place. start a clean slate.

2012-02-18T03:10:00.000-08:00

been on the right track for way too long. kinda stuck in a mess. the moment i felt that jolt of pain, some large surge of frustration and disappointment just ran right through me. i should’ve stopped. it’s as if this pain has become an annual ritual. i think it’s absurd to go through such circumstances to see the silver lining.

it just hurts knowing that all the careful planning, arduous sessions and hopes which i held on to, are now shattered - every bit of it.

kinda sucks screwing things up when the pressure to perform is at an all time high but i’ll get over this soon and over time, i’ll climb back up to hopefully taste accomplishment. it’s the road to recovery and the mental preparation aspect which i’ll be focussed on now i guess.

forget about the downside. don’t let pessimism get to you cause all it’s going to do is swallow that inner confidence you have and pull you down like an anchor to the seabed leaving you there to suffocate and drown.

i’ll be back with more to offer - a comeback that will prove to be my fruits of labour.

it’ll be brilliant.

2012-02-03T06:27:00.000-08:00

Ahhhhhhh.

Thailiand
Indonesia
Hong Kong
Taiwan
Indonesia
Sri Lanka

I could go for all if I wouldn't mind failing my A lvls.

2012-01-23T02:57:00.001-08:00

I don't know how it ended up like this.

You meant so much to me. I can't even describe the extent of the impact you had on my life. I thought things would work out for once in my life. I guess it didn't.

I made a mistake or two along our rather haphazard journey together. But I hold no regrets. Everything I said, did and acted upon was due to my sentiments at that moment of time. On hindsight, maybe yes it was a mistake but I believe that it was the right thing to do then and the only reason why these certain actions are held as a mistake is because times had changed.

I never wanted my feelings to fade away. They just did.

I was so caught up in school and so were you. We barely had enough time for each other, and expressing yourself virtually just doesn't cut it sometimes. Maybe you are right to say that I am selfish. But seriously? Is that the only thing you see in me? I went out with them for you. You knew yourself I was hesitant to meet new people - people I wasn't comfortable with. I think that right there really has no implication of me being selfish. That whole day with you? As if I joyfully wanted to bring myself to that situation. And right after that you can tell me about the 100bucks. I just overlooked that. I felt used, unwanted, helpless, not even human. But did I say anything? No. I respected what you said and simply closed one eye over that issue. Or how about the time when you pissed me off so badly? I just kept my mouth shut and pretended you didn't say anything. You acted in a self-absorbed way with the strong belief that it was your obligation. And after that, you can still guilt trip me? I overlooked so many situations in which I felt you were being unfair to me. And why? Because I liked you.

What did I do to deserve this?

My fickle-mindedness? I warned you. I told you I was fucked up. I told you I wasn't into this relationship thing because it's just not who I am. The first time I let go of you, it already hurt you. But it was for the best right? Oh wait. You don't believe in doing any thing for the best. And so second time around, I took that leap of faith. I told you about my feelings. It was something I never imagined myself to do. But in the end, I still did it. I thought you were worth it. I took the risk - the risk of me handling this relationship thing. Guess things couldn't work out and we both were faced to deal with the negative side of it.

My selfishness? I didn't want to pay for anything. Why did I have to? Courtesy? You paid once, I paid once. And there we go - we were even. Thats how I chose to leave it as. Me not sending you home? I hadn't done something like that my entire life. Don't you think I wanted to wait for the right time? Besides, HV isn't exactly near to TM is it?

What makes me feel so worked up about everything is your anger at me: your lack of faith in me. You say I planned for all of this. Do you seriously think I wanted to see you in this pain? That I wanted to just toy around with you? Do I even seem like the kind who will screw around with a girl just cause she seemed to like me? If I do, then go ahead and put the damn blame on me and say that 'Yes Shashi, I think you set me up' But honestly? I think I have a shitload of more important things to do with my life than toying around with a girl. So no. I didn't plan any of this and never wanted this to happen. The fact I waited these 2 weeks was to hope my feelings would grow and because I didn't know how to tell you. Do these 2 reasons not show that I care about you? That I didn't want this to happen?

Why are doing this to me? I feel that you've pinned everything on me and there's nothing I can do about it but feel utter guilt.

If you ask me, I feel unappreciated now. To think that the girl I loved thought that I intended for this to happen, breaks my heart and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it.

No one understands. Not even her. And thats the most wretched thing.

If you really think that I planned all of this - that I was a bastard and simply used you and that you were stupid to fall for me then I am sorry.

It just feels that you don't even take into account my feelings and that you don't seem to notice how affected I am.

But that's okay because hey, I'm the bastard after all.

2011-02-12T05:36:00.000-08:00

Yknow what

Fuck this.

2011-01-25T07:04:00.000-08:00

Take her away and leave me behind

At some point of your life you've probably felt that everything is just crumbling down on you.

At some point of your life, haven't you wanted to watch over your own funeral, and wait to hear a eulogy dedicated to you?

Shit happens, and pulls people away from happiness and seeing the brighter side to life.

Right now, I can't do shit. It's like I don't wanna go to school, I can't move around, I can't train, I can't go out.

Everything I used to do to fill my time, I suddenly can't do.

It's easy to find other things to do right? Like to fill up your time and such. So I decided to watch movies to pass my time.

I watched 'A Beautiful Mind' last night; you know the movie about the schizophrenic mathematician, John Nash. Not that I'm into math or whatsoever, but the movie really moved me.

When I was lying on my bed, rolling around just before I slept, I started to think about the movie in relation to my life. Of course I'm not a Nobel winning mathematician nor am I schizophrenic but it really hit me on the idea of Problem and Solution.

Sometimes we all have problems and you feel that you've lost all hope because you just can't find a solution to your problem and am afraid that you'll be stuck in that misery for eons. So if you ever think that way, think again.

With every problem we have, we should work around it - find a solution. But the trick to solving the problem lies within yourself; never give up. The moment you do, you can be assured that you'll be shattered.

Recently, I think I've just been rather contentious in a way. It's like mood swings. One second I'm in a good mood, and the next, my mood is completely opposite.

I've pissed shitloads of people off already but I'm living with it.

Right now, I want everything to be okay. Things just suck.

School commences on thursday for me and orientation begins.

I hope it'll a blast.

HH12! (:

`ta

2011-01-23T05:53:00.000-08:00

something's watching over me like sweet serendipity

I decided to blog today cause I'm uber bored and I can't do much anyway because I'm pretty much immobile. Damn crutches.

Anyway, about my injured heel, it's a pretty long story which I can't be bothered to type out. Well, I'm out for 3months. Probably will be able to do nationals i hope. But don't think i'll take triple jump this year. my heel will probably just bleed again. hah.

Yesterday was awesome. Dion, Terence and Casey stayed over at my place. Had shitloads of good games of bridge. We practically bridged the whole night and played Monopoly Deal every now and then. So that was pretty fun.

Didn't do much today. Most people were at allcomers I presume. oh wait. its track series now.

Since I haven't been going out these past few days, I've had time to stay home alone and think about shit.

I screwed up badly and now I have to bear the consequence of not taking proper care of myself.

I should've watched out for the omens. There were so many events which prevented me from doing that last jump which caused the heel jump. Too bad for me I paid no attention to the signals sent from above.

I learnt my lesson and now I have to be more careful. Am contemplating as to whether I should switch my take off leg to my left leg for long jump cause I dont wanna risk my right heel getting injured for the 3rd time.

Ahwell.

I got nothing to post about besides my heel la. HAHA

K BYE

2011-01-10T10:57:00.001-08:00

no one has faith in me.

2011-01-10T10:56:00.001-08:00

no face.

2011-01-04T08:50:00.001-08:00

Do we know who we are?

Or do we need someone on the other side of the window to tell us who we really are.

When we have a role model; a leader - do we look up to them? Respect them? Or are we just aiming to mould ourselves into that ideal person we see and believe in.

Sometimes, I know who I want to be, what I want to do, what I am going to do. But at other times, my thoughts would have just shifted to a totally different direction.

It's January 5th today.

I worry about the future ahead. But then again, most of us are. I'm afraid to take risks and see the outcome. I like being comfortable and playing safe, if you know what I mean.

After playing poker just now, it came to my realization that in actual fact, it does pay off to take risks. Call it whatever you want, the effect which taking risks has, can change things drastically in a postive or negative manner of course.

But what is taking risks all about?

5 years ago, I was in primary six. Collecting my PSLE results was probably the most nail-biting experience I had that year.

When I did receive my results, I was deeply upset and was full of regret. At that point of time I felt that I had let my parents down. My brother did extremely well. It just didn't seem fair to them for me to be such a let down.

But what could I do?

I would be going to SJI via DSA anyway. And up to this date, I dare say that my parents were darn afraid of me struggling in the school environment.

Things worked out, and I got into a decent class in sec 3. Sure going to SJI was a risk but it was worth the take and the environment there drove me to excel. Never once will I regret going to SJI. I had great fun there, had good friends there. The camaraderie holding us together as a school was simply amazing.

On the other hand, in secondary three, I stopped having Malay tuition because I simply could not stand the subject. I just couldn't bare to go through an additional painstaking 2hours a week. It was horrible.

So from sec 3 to 4, I had no Malay tuition. It was a huge risk, especially since failing my Malay could lead to a consequence so severe such that I may not even be eligible for JC.

I took my Malay O levels and ended up with a C6. Nothing to be proud of but it shows that the risk I took about dropping Malay tuition was a poor one and I should have thought twice about dropping it. Nevertheless, things worked out eventually.

Life works in a mysterious way. Things happen for a reason and one day, we will come to realise that reason.

After I receive my results next week, I step into a new environment on the 12th.

Things will shape up to be just fine.

wakeup

2010-12-21T07:06:00.000-08:00

today was not bad.

you know i keep waking up at like 8 everyday and then i force myself to go back to sleep cause theres nothing to do at 8. so i end up waking up at noon. ^^

played loads of monopoly deal today with my family. whoosh. damn fun. :D

apart from that, i stayed at home and didnt do much also. damn sian. ahwell what to do.

going shopping with mum tmr. cant waitz. i wanna buy stufffffffff.

i finally have been able to satisfy my craving for chocolate lava cake.

my sister baked some so at least thats done. damn bored eh. like nothing to do.

and everyone's like busy doing something. bleh. nevermind. its just my laptop and myself then!(:

till then,

seeyou.

2010-12-20T09:29:00.000-08:00

hihi.

wah sian. havent blogged in damn long.

i feel awesome.

i finally cut my nails. it was pretty long. was getting in the way. finally got on my ass to cut em.

anyway, its christmas week!!!!

i hope this years christmas is gonna be fun uh. just enjoy la.

ive been damn lazy to blog cause i got nothing to blog about and i still have nothing to blog about.

too lazy to blog about how my days have been cause it is rather uninteresting. its just been full of yoghurt. like SHITLOADS.

ahwell.

its been damn long since i stayed up till like 2 or smth. recently id just die by 1 and would knock off. idk why though. but now im getting back into the night cycle so thats pretty okay.

oh and so zach and josh farro left paramore. noooooooooo. another good band losing people. first fob 'disbanded' and now this for paramore. great.

k la

catchdonnie

2010-12-08T06:49:00.000-08:00

i like famous amos damn alot eh.

like the fresh ones from the shop. the one you buy of the rack at supermarkets suck la

AND WINE GUMS TOO.

damn. my mum keeps buying em and im just falling in love with em eh. wahahha

so nothing much happened today.

ditched casey etc. to go to dhoby for minds :/ whoops. heh.

today damn shiok. got up at about noon or slightly after i think and went for lunch with mum and sister.

that was basically the highlight of my day. lol! wednesday's my lazy day and i love it ^^

but nothing much la. finally get a chance to just bum around at home and just slack. seriously. lol!

feels pretty good actually to not go out and stuff and just stay home. so cosy

sian. i have a problem which needs to be solved quick. got about less than a month to place things in perspective and ensure things go fine la.

kk. nothing to say already. and watching some damn hilarious youtube vids.

pray

2010-12-07T07:12:00.000-08:00

ello.

trained this morning.

im damn grumpy in the morning wth. i hate mornings, seriously.

i mean like our body is tired la and probably not even functioning properly. mornings suck. im always damn pissed in the morning. but to heck.

lunched at home today :(

ive concluded that i suck in tennis again.

havent played in so long and today headed over to jen's place and i got owned by him.

at least wenhan still sucks with me ^^

we were supposed to have our HIMYM marathon but it aint gonna happen so thats called off so we just washed up and went for dinner

got back and we played some board game - 'first around the world'

wah i love the game even though. i swear the only reason why i lost was cause i got like THE MOST SHITTY CARDS. SCREW.

ohwell nevermind. that board game seriously damn fun.

played some carrom. dammit. my finger's damn pain. and i swear the game is damn hard. wahahah.

WEDNESDAY TMR. GET TO SLEEP IN TMR :DDD

byebye.

2010-12-06T07:15:00.000-08:00

hihi.

wah shit.

training sucks the living shit outta me.

everytime i train in the morning, i gotta cancel my plans in the afternoon cause im too damn tired to do anything.

k la. not everytime. but it happened twice and its damn irritating.

anyway, i napped this afternoon and when i woke up my calf was bloody pain.

so right now i have a screwy calf. ohwell.

caught 2 movies yesterday with casey and ryan - rapunzel and my soul to take.

watched it at cine la.

it was a sunday and it was like friggingg packedd so i got my mum to just book the tix online.

that way we wouldnt have to q up and all.

frolicked before rapunzel, dinner after rapunzel at taka and then we rushed back for my soul to take.

it wasnt that bad.

THE RIPPERRRRRR

aiyah. lazy to blog bout the other days la.

ceeya

PHUKETT

2010-11-29T04:09:00.000-08:00

Greetings from Phuket!

Alright. The trip's been frigging amazing so far. damn shiok taking a break and just chilling.

Day 2 just ended so yeah.

Well, i just went to phuket in june and here i am again. I thought itd be boring but in june my brother couldnt get leave off NS and come but this trip he managed to so thats already better.

This time around, my parents kinda planned different holiday from the last.

The june one was a rather rest and relax in the villa. lay around the pool, sit by the hotel's beach and everything.

But this time around, we're more immersed in the commercial stuffings. Cause we're staying at like this place Patong which is generally where most of the shit in Phuket happens including all the nightclubs, prostitution etc.

So, i thought it would be a bit sick staying around such a sleazy place but i must say the hotel is damn nice.

once again im in a villa place. pretty cool. got the private pool and all but we dont even use ittt. wasted. ahwell.

So on day1, we basically stayed in the hotel most of the time. went to the nearby beach for a massage damn cheap. 10bucks for like 40 mins. shiok i swear .whahaha

and dinner that night was the bombbbbb. nice place by the cliff of a beach and all.

SO TODAY right(day2) was damn awesome as well.

jet ski-ed today. wah damndamndamndamn thrilling. whahahaha.

okay. off for the buffet!

bye (:

shinealight

2010-11-27T08:12:00.000-08:00

I love this song nowz.

Mcfly's back with some new look or smth and I think it's great!

On a side track, caught 3 movies today at jon's place.

I SWEAR, the movies were damn misleading. They make you think that it's gonna be damn damn interesting but actually there's no storyline. damn.

But the movies weren't that bad la! Quite a variety though.

I'm flying off to phuket tomorrowwwwwwww!

Well, it's phuket again so it's gonna be a bit sian but its gonna fun i hope! PLUS the food there is like holy mama god like.

Too bad if I become unfit when I come back to training again when I get back which will be 1st dec!

Well then thats it.

'ta

2010-11-26T21:36:00.001-08:00

what an ass.

imscrewed

2010-11-24T22:44:00.000-08:00

screwedddddd

wohohhoho.

this week i trained for the first time in like eons.

i honestly swear i died.

today i died TWICEEE.

couldnt even complete the workout.

thank god coach was nice and let me do less when i told him i was dying and felt like puking.

truth be told, i puked like twice today.

damn shitty.

after doing one set of bounding i just died. idk why also.

stupid o levels hindered everything. ahwell.

ill be training tomorrow again.

hopefully that goes fine.

damn shitty.

thanks to my shitty mood, im at home :(

went to Genting with 436, and boy was that awesome!

it was great fun to be around with them

the room wasnt too good but then again, we were hardly in the room! So it didnt matter.

ima get some rest now

bb.

Sing - My Chemical Romance

ilovepancakesandyou

2010-11-09T07:01:00.001-08:00

i love pancakes

it's perfect

you're perfect.

tmr's m.t papers. hope everyone does well

this sucks. i thought icould have pancakes but apparently its gonna be redpancakes and i cant even get KFC so there goes fun.

anyway, Marina sandzzz on 17th. and genting after that with class.

in the mean time, 3 mcq papers left.

have just been lazing around. bleh.

i need smth to do.

so let me tell you about my day. i sat at home, watched HIMYM the whole day and while i waited for it to load, munched on some M&Ms

frick. im confuseddddddddddddddddd.

and damn sad that i got an extra bio paper to take on monday cause bio students have their mcq's the weekend after everyone else is done.

OHYEAH. HIGH NOON'S FRICKING AWESOME.

everyone shuold download this app from apple store and play.

and for the record if casey says he owns me at it, hes lying. :D

im off!

I Wanna - The All-American Rejects

p.s the pancake photo's off khairul's tumblr

hihi.

2010-11-04T06:58:00.000-07:00

saw this on casey's tumblr and GOD doesn't this look enticing.

ANYWAY,

hello!

o's are finally coming to an end. im gonna miss a bit of it. the stress and everything. but seriously, im just glad its going to be over. all the papers havent been horrible but you know, you never know how you fair.

hope i did fine

parents will be glad with 10points and well, I'm not going for some crazy 6 points or smth.

I just wanna know that i worked relatively hard and well, now there's nothing i can do bout it.

Watched 'the social network' yesterday. its really some interesting shit on how facebook was formed and everything.

really cool.

finally got the time to blog.

didnt manage to go out for some pancakes with casey today but ohwell, mum still got me some hotcakes from macs this morning <3

anyway, im glad i blogged after so long.

and im kinda pissed right now.

but thats besides the point.

vaunt 5 on 21st night. hope im not too tired after my trip to genting. see how things go. pretty much free now.

but ah. im off!

bb.

2010-09-24T07:27:00.000-07:00

1 week left in SJI.

Oh it's been awesome these past 4 years - a couple of ups and downs but still a wonderful 4 years well spent.

I feel good about myself, leaving SJI as a person I wasn't 4 years ago.

It's pretty amazing how the school can influence one to think and act so differently - in a way you never say yourself as.

OKAY.

Mock exams have been going on.
E math was X-marks-the-spot killer.

Physics 2009 paper, did fairly well. Glad

Chem was today. MCQ went not badd. Hopefully I did well enough in paper2.

All that aside, it's the weekend again!

Off to play my weekly 2 hours of tennis tomorrow at Jen-U's.

I'm improving! hehehe

Anyway, I'm off now.

Catch ya later (;

The Catalyst - Linkin Park

2010-09-19T02:19:00.000-07:00

This is fricking bullshit.

Seriously,

you're a nobody

You're a fricking loser, so just stop it.

Yeah, I know I'm not so awesome or whatever - but that's why I shut my damn mouth

You, on the other hand, are some egotistical creature

Did I mention you, sweetheart, being an elitist?

Funny how no one seems to classify you or relate you anywhere close to being elite.

And screw, I'm not implying I am heads and shoulders above this person or whatsoever.

I'm just saying - be humble and don't flaunt. Fair enough if you are in a position to be arrogant. People can understand that.

The world doesn't revolve around you, honey.

Only Girl - Rihanna

2010-09-16T05:32:00.000-07:00

This is fricking screwed up.

Am I like some oxidising agent?

One that helps people but in return, I get no help?

This is rather bullshit.

I'm pissed, dissapointed, jealous.

Being bombarded with poor prelims grades only makes these matters worse.

I'm mugging my ass off now but still, idk.

I just dont get it.

Today, just seeing those 11characters pop up made my day.

I really wished I had done something about it but I guess maybe I'm not in the best position to do such a thing.

I've been feeling something different about you
recently. Normally, I'm really perky about it, but now I'm starting to see a different perspective.

Looking at you, from another spectrum, really makes me feel all fuzzy. It's nice to see someone normal.

Idontknow whether you get what I'm saying.

Well, I guess maybe one or two people only do.

But I know, this feelings growing.

And I want to capture it as soon as possible.

I'm off.

I hope whatever happened today, will repeat itself tomorrow

Highly unlikely, but you know what?
I'm still keeping my hopes up.

Yes i know, 'For a pessimist, i'm pretty optimistic'

Ciao.

2010-09-15T08:34:00.000-07:00

I want to be a success story

2010-09-04T06:01:00.000-07:00

100th post - dedicated to bieber.

i kinda like the song.

not bad!

I don't really have anything against this chap.

But ohwell.

I'm off!

`ta

2010-08-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

wah shit.

i dont think ive studied much. im not even ready to take prelims la.

i think the papers are gonna be damndamn hard.

there goes getting close to distinctions this term.

ohwell. 11 30 now.

I REALLY GOT TO STOP TAKING MY DAILY 4HOUR NAPS.

I mean, i should be studying. frick.

its okay.

prelims next week. ugh.

2010-08-07T07:00:00.000-07:00

Unpredictable obstacles.

It's a pain, alright.

But that's how things work.

We are the pundit of emotion.

We keep moving forward albeit the immense pressure affects us.

Take a look at the salient aspects of our life and work on it.

Expand the expanded; contract the contracted

And now this desicated prelims near.

It just goes on and on.

It's tough; no doubt about that.

And this Wednesday, my interminable wait comes to a halt.

Release of M.T O level Results.

Fingers crossed.

Perfect - Hedley

2010-07-31T07:35:00.000-07:00

SJI Carnival 2010

I had fun.

I don't know about you guys, but I felt that the REAL HIGHLIGHT was the velcro ball wars.

DAMN was it fun.

Winner could stay on at a cheaper rate.

Jen-U, Wenhan, Jon chua, Rishi and I played.

Well, we won 3 games, and then was asked to leave cause they said we were hogging it.

Boy was it fun!

Things there were pretty fun. Dunking was cool, shirts not too bad.

I'm still sad i didnt win anything from the lucky draw :(

Ohwell.

Till then,

ceeya.

Club Can't Handle Me - Flo-Rida feat. David Guetta

2010-07-28T08:37:00.000-07:00

2010-07-27T06:59:00.001-07:00

fml.

i suck.

im fricking hopeless.

fml.

2010-07-25T01:30:00.001-07:00

HI(:

Just had allcomers.

6.58M.

Damn pleased man. With shit training and injury I didn't lose much. whoo.

Anyway, this weekend sucked.

Didn't do any shit.

Friday night watched despicable me. It was alright. very.cuddly.

So well I'm not going to taipei anymore. heehee. nvm.

Guess I'll stay right here in Singapore, trying to mug.

I fricking fail when it comes to mugging la. I'll open my book and just stare. no shit gets in.

OHOH.

i hate closet muggers.

i didn't get a chance to wrap up some stuff yest. so i guess this post helped to clear stuff up (;

Misery - Maroon 5

2010-07-16T02:57:00.000-07:00

Frick. I'm screwed.

Prelims is in a month.
I'll be in for shit if I dont start now, but bleh.

Just study abit everyday la.

Dammit. Idk whether I should go to taipei for the competition.

Thing is, I'll be dead for prelims. Dead-er than I already am.

Todays Friday sucked.

Lunched with robert and coleman - far east usual.

Bubble tea. Woah shit.

Mango peach iceblend <3>

Anyway,

this sucks.

Im at home on a friday afternoon.

BUT at least it's friday.

Gonna make good use of today. Wanna slack tomorrow. so

studystudystudy.

(;

2010-07-09T08:20:00.000-07:00

Where's the recognition?

There's no need for any recognition.

But at a time like this, when you're struggling for the same goal as someone else,

I believe the more deserving one should get it.

Screw them partial bodies.
Where you have n, I have 2n+1.
But I accept this - unfairness.
It's apart of me now.

I'm that guy - the unlucky one.
The one narrowly missing every opportunity he could gain.

Happened once, happened twice, and a 3rd time.

I'm not surprised.

The only thing positive which came out of this shithole, is

'when silver makes it' has been proven.

Even if i don't get my way, I'm happy, not for myself, but for them.

Sign off.

2010-07-09T08:19:00.000-07:00

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

2010-07-03T03:48:00.000-07:00

When you screw something up, it sucks.
But chuck that shit behind and move on.
You can stay there saying all that shit
Cause I'm moving forward.

I never once thought about what a next life would be like.
I wouldn't mind a relaxed life.
That would be nice.
I can just imagine myself sitting by the beach in a cabana, sipping on a cocktail.
Now wouldn't that be nice.
Yes, but life screws you up every now and then,
So I land up here - mugging for O's.

I Like It - Enrique Iglesias

2010-06-25T09:04:00.000-07:00

Hiya(:

Kay. School holidays are officially over. It's the last weekend. NOOOOOO.

So lets see.

Havent done much actually.

Ohwait. Highlight of the week.

BOUGHT REESE'S :D

And I've finished all 12 packs of mine :(

But it was definitely worth the 20bucks I paid for.

Casey paid 22 =DDD

ANYWAY.

Fricking bored. And I'm going to find something to do now.

ta.

2010-06-21T07:37:00.000-07:00

82825112

ANYONE KNOW WHOSE NUMBER THIS IS
Burn in hell. Yes. Burn in hell, you.

Deja Vu - 3OH!3

2010-06-12T00:06:00.000-07:00

I'm back.

Whoops. Haven't blogged in damn long.

Lazy + No time.

So lets see. What happened recently.

Can't even remember what I've been doing the past few days!

Frick. I can't remember where I went on Tuesday. Ohright. I think I went with Casey to Orchard. And we were gonna find the board game shop. So we realised right, that the shop was nearer to Somerset.

Bleah. So we took a walk to 313 area. AND SO THIS BOARD GAME PLACE AH WAS IN SOME STUPID ULU AREA. Tsk! So Casey just used his Google maps. Heh.

Found the place. Crap. The place was filled with boardgame addicts. Pfft.

Wednesday

Didn't do much actually. Lunched with wenhan and zhiwei at J8 and then headed back home for tuition. :((((

Hmmm. Oh, after tuition, I joined Casey, Hk, Jon and Ben tan for dinner.

So yeah. And since Cafe Cartel had the half price thing after 9, we waited till 9 there and had the 'Viking & the rock" with Casey. 8 scoops of vanilla and chocolate ice cream <3>

Thursday

Met Casey at 313. Lunched at super dog. Frick. The hot dog I had, sucked.

Walked around 313 LIKE FRICKING ALOT OF TIMES.

Finally settled at Cold Rock, and grabbed a waffle with ice cream. Notbad notbad. Hahah.

Took a train down to Ion after that 'cause Casey wanted to get a shirt.

Friday

Surge II - it was fun yeah.

Self explanatory I guess.

Catch ya later!

September - Daughtry

2010-06-07T06:45:00.000-07:00

This city won't sleep tonight.

2010-06-07T05:27:00.000-07:00

Check that cover outttt. Awesome shit.

Anyway, yesterday was great.

Tuition, Ice skating, dinner.

Whipee.

I'm pretty lazy to upload pics, so just get em off fb or something (:

Had 3 STINKING HOURS of Math today.

Hope it helps(:

Gonna find something to do tomorrow too.

Eating like a pig + No training = Fat

Oh who gives a shit (:

Ciao

If I Had You - Adam Lambert

2010-06-05T05:59:00.000-07:00

I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar.

Ohmygod.

I'm so bored.

Both brother and sister are out which leaves me with no one to irritate :((((

Ohwell.

Let's see what I've been doing.

PLANNING MY HOLIDAY!

Alrightalright. I just can't wait. I wanna get out of this shithole.

Not going too far this time 'cause Mum is all 'You have O Levels!'

So Phuket it is.

Oh the beach. :D

So we're staying in a villa - pretty cool yeah. Comes with a private pool and all. Nice.

But whaddaheck, I'll be enjoying the beach babes.

Didn't do no shit today.

Tuition only I guess. Bleah.

Someone entertain me, please.

Catch ya later then.

Somebody to Love - Justin Bieber

2010-06-02T20:22:00.000-07:00

Hello!! I'm in Bio now(: Stupid hereditary stuff. Mendel here, Mendel there.
It's getting boring. Oh. And today's gonna suck.

I'm gonna be rotting at home for the whole afternoon.

How fun yeah?

Supposed to train today and yesterday but I couldn't be bothered to train.

Waste time only lah!

Maybe I'll go for training when coach comes back or something.

And Mrs Lim just asked Coleman and I whether we're following the lesson.

Obviously I'm not. But who cares she just laughed at us 'cause we weren't paying attention.

Mrs Lim's just damn awesome!

Next period's Math. Probably getting kicked out of class......again.

Bleah.

Alright. Gonna try and understand wth she's teaching now

Catch ya later!

Idontgiveashit

2010-06-02T07:19:00.000-07:00

Yeah yeah yeah

Screw you.

Today sucked.

Math was fine, heh.

Uhhhh, extra lessons are just boring me.

Bio test tomorrow. Not giving a shit. Sorry Bio:(

Oh. And I got my heel and ankle checked today.

Ankle's fine, heel's screwed.

Damaged the shock absorbants in our heel, so that sucks. 4-6weeks of rest.

Cant be that bad. Heehee.

Oh and 'you' don't have to announce your achievement to the whole world. And it's okay, it's not as if I've not seen you crumble. First, go screw yourself and then go jump off a cliff. You screwed me over in the past and you know what,

Karma gets back at you and kicks you in the ass.

Burninhell, you.

Heehee. That was nice.

Bye.

2010-06-01T06:00:00.000-07:00

2010-06-01T05:54:00.000-07:00

I would talk to you but I hold back.

I'm just a coward.

*Since people are visiting my blog, cant ya'll tag! (;

2010-05-31T07:19:00.000-07:00

Hello! (:

M.T O's was today.

To be honest, I was dead nervous when I pulled the question paper open.

It was like !@#$%^&

Ohwell. I did my best and I'm really glad that things worked out (:

Anyway, after that

Fried Mars Balls with Wenhan and Casey

That was followed by our lunch. Seoul Garden this time around. I didn't eat much though. Bleah.

Zongyang and Hongkiat joined us too.

Sat there, talked and talked till like 5?

The rest left, so it was just Casey and I.

Stopped by Famous Amos to get a muffin. Boy their muffins suck. Too dry! =/

So Casey and I had decided to catch Prince of Persia at 7 05PM

We had lotsa time to spare. So we headed to ION, got loads of window shopping done. WILL go back to get em kay! Omg. Fricking need to shop. Hope Mum's free to come along with me to supply me with the cash though. Heehee.

Well, then we caught the train to Suntec to watch PoP. Got our tix and then swung by the supermarket to get some stuff. Heh. Spent ages queuing at Carrefour and so we were like 15-20mins late for the movie. Thank god there were ads.

Movie wasn't too bad I guess.

Will post a couple of pics once that Casey sends em in (;

Ithinkimfallingforyou

`ta

Bahasa Melayu

2010-05-30T01:33:00.000-07:00

Kebosanan tidak di dalam kamus kehidupan saya.

Saya sedang belajar Bahasa Melayu kerana saya hendak mendapat keputusan yang terbaik.

Pada Jumaat hingga Ahad, saya mengulangkaji Bahasa Melayu sahaja.

Saya berasa sangat gementar untuk mengambil ujian O level ini dan saya juga sangat bimbang sehingga saya perpeluh banyak di dahi saya.

Mungkin, kumpulan peluhan itu berada di situ kerana cuaca pada hari ini sangat panas.

Ibu saya sangat marah dengan saya pada hari ini kerana dia berfikir saya tidak mengulangkaji untuk peperiksaan saya yang akan berlaku pada keesokkan hari. Dia marah seperti peribahasa yang berbunyi 'bagai harimau beranak muda'

Pada hari kita mengambil markah O level Bahasa Melayu, saya hendak berasa gembira.

Saya mahu perasaan yang burung keriangan berterbangan dalam taman diri saya. Namun, saya akan juga bersiap untuk mendapatkan markah yang tidak baik.

Jika saya mendapat keputusan yang buruk, saya akan berasa sangat pilu.

Melihat kiri api sedih, melihat kanan duri berkecewa. Ibu bapa akan berasa sedih untuk saya dan guru saya akan berkecewa.

Saya boleh menggambarkan keadaan itu.

Apabila saya melihat keputusan saya, hati saya berbunga lalu tersenyum dengan manis dan senyuman itu tidak boleh dipadam oleh bibir saya.

Namun, saya boleh menggambarkan saya menangis pada hari itu. Air mata mengalir seperti sungai daripada mata saya dan saya menggunakan tangan untuk menyapunya sebelum air mata itu bergugur ke lantai.

WOAH SHIT. I WROTE THIS. HAHAHAHAH.

2010-05-29T22:11:00.000-07:00

Mugging Malay.

2230 - 0200

Let's go.

You can choke on your misery.

(;

You have him
That's not stopping me
I'm still loving you even though you don't love me
When she has a boyfriend, and it doesn't affect you, you know it's love

Next stop, NYC

2010-05-29T18:26:00.000-07:00

There goes my daily updates.

Bleah.

Alrightttttt.

Did quite abit of M.T revision today, but whaddaheck. Not like you care or anything.

The weather is crazy. It's bloody hot.

Ohwell.

Damn bored now.

I need a cookie.

Off to get one.

yourefrickingcute

Ceeya (;

Therapy

2010-05-29T01:45:00.000-07:00

Today's a public holiday and I didn't use it too bad.

Did enough revision for Malay I guess.

1:37AM now. Probably gonna start on some Malay and finish by 2 30?

Then I'll get some sleep.

On a side note,

I'm pretty pathetic.

Everything's all screwy now.

This pressure - it's freaking frustrating. I can picture myself in the near future where I want to be, what I want to be. Every part of me in perfect lining.

Living this hedonistic lifestyle doesn't help either. It's like time to face the facts, and stop drowning myself in these surreal thoughts.

I can't do much about it either.

I'll let fate take this one.

This perplexed thoughts is killing my fricking throbbing head.

I need to self-edit the draft already portrayed in my mind.

My thoughts - they need to be clear and distinct -guided by a moral compass.

Give me therapy.

Therapy - All-Time Low

Iwy

P.S: I'm not some emo punk.

2010-05-28T10:34:00.000-07:00

I'm a walking travesty

My ship went down in a sea of sound
When I woke up alone I had everything
A hand full of moments I wish I could change
And a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade

In a city of fools I was careful and cool
But they tore me apart like a hurricane
A handful of moments I wish I could change
But I was carried away

2010-05-27T07:31:00.001-07:00

WHAT THE FRICK.

I DON'T POST TWICE A DAY BUT THIS TIME

WHAT THE FRICK.

2010-05-27T06:25:00.000-07:00

Bleah.

That's it. Official M.T lessons are over.

But the real deal isn't over yet eh.

Gotta use this weekend well.

I'm gonna live Malay this weekend manxz.

I just don't want to have any regrets when I receive my results in August.

It's been about 2weeks worth of intensive lessons, night study programmes.

6-7 hours of M.T each day.

It's gonna pay off yeah.

Apart from the hardcore M.T lessons,

I'm doing good (;

Hanging in there, so yup.

Getting DSA apps ready I guess.

Hope that goes fine but I really don't know =/

Didn't do much today. After lessons, went over to Thomson Plaza with Zongyang, Nick Yeam and Zhiwei. Got some lunch and all. Zy got his new specs. Pretty cool yeah (;

OH AND IT'S BEEN FREAKING HOT AND HUMID RECENTLY.

I can't take the heat I swear.

Oh flip.

Ceeya.

When I Get Home You're So Dead - Mayday Parade

2010-05-24T07:07:00.000-07:00

AAQ Done.

Frick man. I would swear right now but it's some public domain so no. But seriously, aaq was soooooooooooooooooooooo screwed up. Idk wth happened to my ankle eh. It's like not supposed to be pain? But for some reason, after my 2nd jump, the pain on my ankle was just fricking excruciating. I just died there lah please.

Long jump sucks - 9th

Come to think of it, track's just screwing me over. Got Mid year results today

Horribleeeeeeeeee

English - 62

E Math - 65

A Math - 79
Biology- 55(Omg. Zero studying and I passed <3
Physics - 74
Chemistry - 70

Combined Humanities - 56 D:

Mother Tongue - 52

Shucks man. And I was training during exam period and I screwed up BOTH.

The aaq competition part was shit but everything else was kinda fun yeah.

Shacked. Spent the whole night out and all. Just need some sleep

Xoxo

Shashi

2010-05-20T00:19:00.000-07:00

Yo.

I'm in school now and I'm sitting opposite Casey (Carter) Chin. Yes, hes's a freak. (;

no wait i was just kidding, i was being an asshole. hes damn cool and hot okay (:
Hmmm there are like tons of indians around me.

Ohwait. Sorry, that was Casey who typed that. He's an asshole. Duh (:

Anyway, there's night study in awhile. Starts at 4 30.Damn sian.

Today's 7 hours of Malay. Freak man. How to take this kind of shitttttt.

Can die already eh. 7 hours. @#$%^&*. Bleah

Tomorrow gotta check in for aaq dammit. Gonna get owned man I swear.

Ms/Miss Tan is screwing Casey over in front of me right now while I'm typing this. FREAKING HILARIOUSSSSS. Ohwell. Sadsadsad boy.

Okay I'm off.

Listen

2010-05-17T05:32:00.000-07:00

:(

Math Teacher spoke to me today saying that I didn't do too well. Freakkkk. Don't know whether she's referring to A or E math but still. I'm dissapointed. I do her work leh. And she come's and scolds me :( Ohwell. Heck. Work harder!

M.T Intensive has started. Oh goshhhhhhh. It's damn hardcore I swear. 3 hours of Malay and Im dying and from Wednesday it's 7 hours of Malay for me @#$%^&. Killmenow. But you know what. I'll get what I deserve, even if it's only a C6. (;

PITBULL IS TOMORROW. I WANTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

*Oh and this Greyson Chace kid is pretty awesome. JB II.

`Ta

2010-05-16T03:46:00.000-07:00

2010-05-16T03:41:00.000-07:00

You should check this guys own MV of My First Kiss. Awesome song + Awesome Vid.

(:

2010-05-12T03:34:00.001-07:00

Mid-years suckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Tomorrow's Chem MCQ.

This 40MCQ thing, is one hell of a bummer. Ah!

Ohwell. It's okay. Go own tomorrows paper man

3 more MCQ papers, and then it's back to mugging for M.T O's

M.T O's should go well, I guess and hope.

I'll be glad with a B4, to be honest. Don't really care much about my M.T

Wont be part of my L1R5 anyway. Eek

Well then, I'm offffff!

AND FREAK. I SCREWED BOTH E MATH AND A MATH. Dammit.

2010-05-08T22:47:00.001-07:00

I don't know what's going on.

2010-04-25T02:14:00.000-07:00

Yoxzxz.

Mugmugmug. Mid years are next week!

Exciting much!

Gah. I hate SS :( So boring. Ohwell. Just got to study it (;

There's so much we have to mug for Mid years. Can't imagine the load when the real O's come.

Someway or another, I'll do it.

So this weekend has been shit. I've done nothing but rot at home D:

So much for being a weekend eh. Nevermind. After Mid-years, the fun can continue.

For now, I shall just take a break and focus on revision (;

Heehee

I'm munching on gummies now. Frick. It's damn nice.

HAHA

Ohkay. I'll probably update this thing later if I have the time.

For now,

`ta

2010-04-23T07:05:00.000-07:00

Talk Track

Hello(;

Alright. So, I thought Id just talk about track in this post.

Nats are over. No need to complain about it. So I'm kinda looking forward to upcoming competitions. Too bad I gotta take my Malay O's so I pulled out from SEA Junior. But to heck. There's still AAQ, Asean and Pahang Open next week. Ahhhhh.

I just died in training today. But there was some good out of training today I guess. Idk. It rained like mad today and my shoes are wet. I'm pissed. The jetplane noise shocked me and so I turned around and I saw one. Had given me some relief. So yeah =)

There's training tomorrow and I have no mood to train. My legs are just killing me.

Ohwell

Endure

1/5

Shashi
:)

2010-04-21T21:12:00.000-07:00

Starry Eyed

Hello (;

It's my first post of 2010(:

I've been contemplating on deleting this blog, and well, the verdict - I'm not going to. I'm just going to try and keep up blogging as much as I can. I mean, it isn't that bad or boring to blog right. Only thing's that no one actually read's this rather dead blog.

So, I'm at home this Thursday morning 'cause I'm sick. Ah. I wished this cold of mine would just go away. It's really annoying the shit outta me. So here's what I've done today.

I got up at 9 and was pretty rejuvenated after getting 12hours of sleep for 3 consecutive days. It really does feel awesome. So I had a shower and all the usual morning stuff.

I got pretty mad with my maid today D:

Well, I was upstairs resting right and I wanted some cereal for breakfast so I asked her to get a bowl of cereal for me. And she didn't -,-, leaving me to drag my sick-self down, instead. And so I had my bowl of honey stars at the coffee table. At the same time, I helped myself to the papers which I found on the table. I basically just leafed through the pages and practically everything there irked me.

I don't really bother to read the papers much. I guess I just get the news off the net, probably where I get everything else. The Internet is just one awesome piece of shit. There's nothing you can't find on it and now with Wireless@SG, you can get any piece of information at almost anywhere. It's that good eh.

Okay freak. Less facts stuff. Eek.

My Bio SPA is tomorrow.

I'm probably going to read through LSM's notes on SPA and then just mug Transport in Plants or something.

Mid-years in 2 weeks. How awesome. I haven't started studying. Real scared. EVERYONE SEEMS TO BE STUDYING.

Ahwell. I'll make do with what I can.

1/5
1/5
1/5

Thats it - 1/5.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Shashi

xoxo

Changing Perceptions.

2009-11-04T09:12:00.000-08:00

-

2009-09-26T09:00:00.000-07:00

Hoho,

Im back baby. ;D. well, lets say this blog WAS dead. I don't think I'll even update it but anyway tsktsk. Stuff haven't been going too well at all. EOY's are in like 10 days and im screwed. I know no shit. I need to study, but cant study. Well, i just cant get me mind of some stuff. So im gona go study chem with dion in awhile so hope thats fine. Ahhhh. Things nowadays have like uh, changed alot. Not many people seem to care anymore. It's all illusional. The care is never there. Carebear! HEH. okay so yeah. I'm basically left with myself to consult now. I'm sick. I'm tired. I'm one. I don't know who or why or how come but well, I find my blog posts are just becoming some diary of a sad, dead old man. But oh well.

Bye ;D

50th Post =D

2009-06-28T03:17:00.000-07:00

50th Post!

Heywhey,

Alrightalright. nownow. It's already Sunday =O. Theres school tomorow =( but lucky im quarentined. Don't know whether thats actually good or bad but ah, to heck.

So whats new? It's like my 50th post! HAHAHAHAH. okay. pretty lame but.

ITS MY FRICKING 50TH POST

Hahahha. so, im munching on gummy bears now. certainly yummy ;D okay uh. i didnt do no shit today. just staying around at home. woke up at bout 11 30. got ready and everything and went for lunch with family. I didnt eat much. just the horfun, pork ribs and uh fish. wasnt that hungry.

Got home, and then i was hungry.ah. so i went out to buy some gummy bears =DDDDD. Since i was out, i went to get an oreo chocolate milkshake. HEH.

Reached home. settled down and all and here i am. well, im actually pretty intrigued by some amusement park stuff. so ive been reading bout amusement parks this afternoon and BOY ITS FRICKING COOL. HAHAHAH. okayokay. i mean like. WHOO. okay. one day ill be going to this JUST SO AWESOME AMUSEMENT PARK

Cedar Point

World Record of 17 Rollercoasters

BEAT THAT. WHOOOO. alrigght. one day, im going there and ill have shitloads of fun. muahahahha. right.

I have nothing left to talk about actually but i still feel like typing stuff so ill just blabber.

I'm screwed for Physics because I haven't done the group work.

(GROUP DONT KILL ME)

HAHAHAH

Alright Im off,

Byeeee (:

Sweet addiction.

2009-06-27T07:15:00.000-07:00

Sweet rose addiction

Yo.

Well, heyhey, you you. ;D. okay whatthehell am I blurting out.hahah. alright. so today is like already saturday and there is just like one more day left till we have to go back to school. Ah.

School seriously sucks at times. I mean, it can get really boring at times. And then there you are, bored in class, staring at the clock going ticktock, waiting for the recess bell and then suddenly a bell goes off, and you realise that it's just a change in period and that there are like 3more periods left till recess. AH You know that feeling? Well, if you do, im sure you know that it sucks big time.

Alright, so i got up at noon today. Hmph, pretty fine. got up, went for a shower and then got ready and all. went for lunch with family and thenthenthen went back.HAHA. okay. dont know what im laughing at actually. so yeah. reached home and played guitar for awhile. whoosh. for some reason, i fishing love playing thnks fr th mmrs on the guitar. damn fun. hahah. okayokay.

oOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoO

After awhile, it was time for tuition. so, i went to her place and found out that THERE WAS NO TUITION. cos i was supposed to be at wala this weekend, so i planned for no tuition. ah. so i left the place. thenthen i went to go for a nice hair cut =D and it turned pretty okay i guess. got home,showered and then changed to go to the gym. went to the gym and did weights. HEHE. okay.

Came back, showered and then got ready for dinner. went for dinner AND GUESS WHO I SAW AT THE RESTAURANT? MY TUITION TEACHER WHO CHUCKED ME OUT OF HER HOUSE JUST NOW WHEN I TURNED UP WHEN I WASNT SUPPOSED TO.HAHAH. okay. tried avoiding her but i failed. haha. alrightalright.

Came back home, and HERE I AM, posting cos luis asked me to. SO YUP

Cya,

Xoxo

Thnks fr th Mmrs

2009-06-26T02:27:00.000-07:00

Heylooooo.

Today has been the same old boring thing. Haven't been doing much actually. Woke up at about 1 i guess. Just really tired from yesterday's weights and sleeping at 2.15? gah. Thinking of training today but i just want to rest at home. =P

Alright, yesterday's post was actually pretty nonsensical. For those of you who thought it was some cryptic thingy, well your wrong. heheh. Alright. this time, MY BLOG TITLE THING actually makes sense cos i actually put thought into what i wanted to write there. So yup. Thnks fr th Mmrs, =D

Yeahhh. He tastes like you only sweeter ;D

Okay. interesting shit huh.

I bet my blog is so interesting, everyone wants to read it now. HEH. alright. kidding.

Auhlright. What is there to do now.

Being home quarentined seriously, sucks.

I mean, seriously. I can't do no shit at all.

Dayum.

I'm off now.

Bye,

XoXo

The good times have rolled

Hell yes, I'm a nervous wreck.

2009-06-25T06:30:00.000-07:00

Good evening (:

West Coast Smoker - Fall Out Boy

The (Shipped) Gold Standard - Fall Out Boy

(Coffee's for Closer's) - Fall Out Boy

Canada - Wikipedia

Live in Berlin - Germany

Thnks Fr Th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy

I Don't Care - Fall Out Boy

Thanks,

Shashi

xoxo

Broke the mold

Heyhoooooooo

2009-06-23T23:30:00.000-07:00

Heyho.(heh)

TODAY

Supposed to catch Transformers 2 with sec211 classmates and also supposed to train today but well, im stuck at home cos of the home quarantine stuffings. cos you see, i just came back from bintan and the day after i came back, indonesia got announced as a H1N1 affected country, so that fricking sucks. But hey. at least i get to skip the 1st day of school =) Heh. so here I am - stuck at home when i could be enjoying myself at training at SJI, weights that is and then heading for lunch and then home for a shower and then back to dhoby ghaut to catch Transformers. Nvm. Ill just stay right here (:

YESTERDAY

Actually, I already posted yest. but who cares. yest.'s post was pretty sheet. so ima post bout yest. kk. woke up bright and early for training. weights. pfft. i suck at weights manxzxz. but nevermind. next. went home, then lunch. yupyup. what did i do yest eh? sheesh. i cant actually remember myself. OH YEAH. well. after lunch, i uploaded photos from clubmed bintan trip. CHEK EM OUT ON MY FACEBOOK YO. now that i have a facebook username

www.facebook.com/whensilvermakesit

Yup. you can check them photos there. =D. So. after i uploaded thee photos, i just sat on my chair and thought and thought and thought. OH OH YEAH. i tried guessing lotsa peoples songs from the lyrics. ya know. the facebook note? yeapps. HEHE. okay. then casey was back - talked; emo-ed; slacked. right. REMINDED ZY to trade my tracksuit.

Heh. cos im not going wala anymore. ah. fricking shin injury. sheesh. but nvm. im sure the rest will have a blast in KL (: hah. so yeahyeah. im kinda bored now. im guessing you can tell. cos i only blog when im EXTREMELY BORED. EG. NOW. well then,

Catch ya guys later!

Shashi,

xoxo.

Should I Give Up?

2009-06-23T08:20:00.000-07:00

Hey,

I dont really know what's wrong with me at this point of time. But well yeah. There are just problems after problems after problems. Haiz.

CHASING PAVEMENTS

I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over,
If I'm wrong I am right,
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust,
I know this is love but,

If I tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And that's exactly what I need to do,
If I'm in love with you,

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Waiting as my heart drops,
And my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep on chasing pavements?
Should I just keep on chasing pavements?

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Well, thats sort of self-explanatory. Im in a dilemma right now you see. Well, ive pretty much solved my problem but you see, im only one side of a coin. It takes two to talk so yup. this sucks.

Bye

Xoxo

Ah.

2009-06-12T20:42:00.000-07:00

HEY.

Surprised im blogging? heh. well i am. im just lazing around at home. im pretty much screwed for lotsa shit. mainly track i guess.

so heres whats wrong

Im fricking injured for 3months. =(

not good at all now is it.

so i got something called bonebruising, whatever that is on my shin. if that shin fractures or any shit, chances are that the fracture wont heal so yeaps. GOTAA REST 3 MONTHS. WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO FOR 3 MONTHS. WALAOXZ. this sucks. kk byebye.

Nothing can hold me back.

2009-04-17T20:06:00.000-07:00

HELLO =D. im back after manymanymany iceages. but nvm. hullo. i decided to post after looking at saati's blog and i hope mine wont be as dead as his. but to be honest, it probably will be as dead as his. if not worse. HAHAH. okay. so lets see whats been going on. NATIONALS. OKAY. nats have been pretty fun.LOL. well. ive been at home like for alot. havent gone to CCK stad. and school. but nvm. so lets see.

1ST DAY OF NATS

my event was on the first day. long jump it was. ah. didnt go too well. no idea why. my long jump performance has been going down quite alot i think. but in wala it was okay. but AH. i didnt perform well in nationals so thats all that counts. no excuses as to why i did badly. i did my best and i got 8th place with a distance of 6.04m. thats like a 26cm deprovement from last year but who gives a shit. ima train hard after nats and next year, ill be back. whoo. but well lets see. as expected, syafiq got the gold with a dist. of 6.44m. well, i expecte a 6.8- 6.9 or even more from him. but well i guess something happened to him but nvm. he'll be back in Nat juniors. 2nd was vanzino with a dist. of 6.31m. well, he bettered my last year's dist. by 1cm so thats good for him. i think he did well and he seemed pretty happy with his achievement =D. and 3rd was jieren with 6.26m if im not wrong. well, grats to these 3.

TRIPLE JUMP DAY

ah.TJ finally came. it went okay iguess. better than long jump though. managed to get 2nd with a distance of 13.42m so thats okay i guess. abit upset cos i know myself that i could have gone further but i was 30cm away from the board on my 2nd jump which was 13.42m but nvm. taufiq took the gold with 13.85m. damn far manxzxz he. hahah. but he did a good job and i think he's pretty happy with it too. haha. syafiq got the bronze with 13.24m. im not too sure what happened to syafiq after his last jump but i heard he pulled his hamstring or smth. kenneth also hurt his hamstring after his first jump. ah. hope they recover well =D. as for me, i gotta take a 6week rest now cos i have a stress fracture on my right shin. so gotta just rest and study now!

I HOPE THE REST OF THE NATIONALS GOES WELL FOR SJI AND THE REST OF THE SCHOOLS. i have been hearing that this year, cat high and acsi are attempting to beat HCI in the B DIV boys. well good luck with that!we'll see if hci manages to defend its title or not on the final day. ALL THE BEST PEOPLE =D

shashi

Guilt to safety

2009-04-06T05:51:00.000-07:00

hellooooooo. even though lilke no one reads this blog. ill just update it for fun. well, im pretty darn shit dead. nats is in a week and in allcomers i didnt clear 6 =( but who cares. i know im capable of way better. SO ILL PROVE IT DURING NATS. hahah. okay. i dont know wth im saying. im just fricking sick of trying to do better. but well, im sure all hard work pays off. so asfter nats, im gona train like some shit dog =P. hmm. i got nothing much to say except that im damn pissed and havent been doing much lately so yeahhhh, BYEBYE

Six Feet Under The Stars

2009-03-18T08:19:00.000-07:00

wala tomorow morning. must be at the airport at like 7 30 am. 0.0. crazy right. super duper early. well , im all packed. hope mum packed it well =D. ahh. duno what else. gona be away from home :( but nvermind. okay its like 11 20 and im not sleeping. fricking lazy to. ah. perth. hmm. nice? or not. nice? or otherwise? nice? or shit? ahh. it better be nice. okay. i decided. this trip i better camwhore like helllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. hahah. okay. byebye

And its bleeding in your hand.

2009-03-14T05:34:00.000-07:00

hi. i decided to blog after a pretty long time. well its gona be a real short post. today, i dont feel good at all. i mean the past 2 weeks have been real bad for me but these 2 days, have like hit me the worst. especially today. i felt perfectly fine in the early morning, but things started to get worse and after allcomers, all the shit came to my mind. well. not sure why im even saying this. but anyway. yeah

I've completely lost myself I don't mind,

Extreme

2009-01-15T06:44:00.000-08:00

Recently, I have thought about lots of things. Some people have said that i worry bout the smallest of things. no idea if thats true or not. but now im really shit feeling.like ALOT of things have been happening. and thats part of the reason why i havent blogged in AGES. so yeahh.

alotta ppl asked me why i was gona give up on track when i cheekily put it"giving up on track" as my PM so yeah. uh. well.i am giving up on alotta things. i mean. really. some stuff are just bugging me day and night so yeahh.

SO HOWS SCHOOL

336!

OKAY. ITS DAMN WEIRD SOMETIMES. i mean like the class doesnt suan rishi enough. he like screws the class up and all. ah. nvm. but anyway i have to unfortunately live with him but i guess thats possible. better friends than enemies anyway. sigh. so the class is relatively quiet.

MY ELECT. HISTORY IS SO COOL. MY WONG. he's like the coolest teacher ever. i mean like his lessons are actually worth looking forward to! 4X a week, i enjoy one period of school thanks to him. i mean even though hes really nice and all, he actually teaches stuff and gets things stuck in your head. wheee. cant wait for his notes. elect hist! haha. okay ive gone nuts. Mr rames is our add an e math teacher. hes a damn nice guy and damn good at teaching. uh. malay teacher. shall not talk bout that. so these are like the teachers im gona talk bout. AND I WONT GO CLOSE TO TALKING BOUT OUR HOL. i mean i think hes probably a nice guy and all lah. everyone has something good in them so yeahhh. but he's probably in HOL mode and stuff so thats why. im sure he'llv do something good to us. ahah

okay. SJI O Level results are apparently damn good? don tknow how good that is. ahah. but well. yeah! im done. upper sec. sucks. its damn tiring. and recess at 11.10 makes you damn hungry. long ques make it worse.

OKAY TATA

ora et labora

Shashi

Cult.

2008-12-25T19:13:00.000-08:00

hellooooo.
well lets see what has been happening these few days

last wednesdayyy

morning was spent watching twilight with claraaa=).met her at plaza sing. hmph. okay. well firstly it was in the morning so i had to wake up bright and early. gah. nvm. it was worth it. i mean like the movie was pretty good. dont know bout the book though. havent read it yet. =P. hhaha. okay well so watched the movie. had ice lemon tea for my drink to drink inside the theatre but i didnt drink much cos firstly it tasted awful. bad ice lemon tea i swear. and it rained that day so it was coldd. so drink less. heh.

after the movie, we headed down to starbucks. had some lava cake thingy and it was like totally unfair cos like clara's cake had like more chocolate sauce compared to mine :(. well anyway eeyeah. i realised that clara took a longggggg time to eat but nvm. at least it was worth a chat. ahah. so after that, i took the train down to harbourfront and well yeapp you guessed right. went to vivocity. ahha so met up with casey,sharon and zongyang. lol. so we watched yes man. pretty dumb, and dead movie. seriously. super predictable but it was pretty funny i guess. not advisable to watch but go ahead. its a good movie if you just wana relax and enjoy. aahaha.

lazy to talk about christmas eve's party. edit it another time.

SUNDAY!
Went out with BRYANNN! and CASEYYYY. (heh. casey;s name looks weird. as usual)
we watched BEDTIME STORIES! (:
The show is freaaaaaaaking funny. I'd recommend if you're into comedy.
"He was underdemeciated!"
HAHAHA
ok well after the show, we played in the arcade for awhile
some drumming game thingy. like lion dance or something hahah
and we raced again this damn pro guy =(
lucky i won one race :)
after that, we couldn't decide what to do hahah.
play LAN? nahh
play pool? nahhhh
bowl? yeah okay!
so we headed to suntec from cine via bus.
the waiting list was sooooooooo long.
we stoned in the arcade for like 30 mins?
before we decided to screw the bowling.
so we took a few *ahem* pictures before bryan left. traitor!
casey and i continued with a few more pictures before we headed to the mrt and took the train home!

OKAY. WELL i refuse to talk bout todays training. sigh. okay well cya!

PB's

2008-12-21T19:05:00.000-08:00

okay. wheee. so well, these few days have been training all the wayyy. pretty tiring but it definitely will help. so what. now im doing so much speed work -_-. kinda hate doing speed. its so tiring. i mean like 60M?! so damn tiring. gah. nvm. so well lets start off. ok nvm. i blogged bout friday already. now to blog about saturday and sunday and well today!

Saturday

Trained with zehnder and temasek sec.-_- at bedok stadium. hmph. so well i kinda died during warm up. 12mins jogging! WTH right. want me to die. im too used to just doing 1or2 rounds but well tht was it. then i stretched and found out tht I was doing 60m starts. your probably thinking "wth? hes a jumper! not a sprinter!" well those were my thoughts too. but whatheheck. i didnt have any choice in what i was doing. so yeah. it was pretty darn funny cos i had no idea how to use starting blocks so i just used whatever khairyl used. and well it went okay i guess. only had to do it 2 times! whee. so first time my timing was - 7.09secs. ok lah. not too bad. next time with i think tail wind - 7.00secs. wheeeeeeeeeeee. happy with tht. but if only there was like slightly more tail wind lah. then it would be like 6.99 so it'll make me happy but who gives a shit. 7 flat is fast enough for my shit standards.

Sunday

Pumped upper body weights at the gym. did quite a bit actually. pumped stomach and back the most. and the next day, i had no aches on my upper body! so well then i did some calf stuff for the lower body. well just abit on the lower body. and guess what?! i got aches on my calves. lik,e whatthehell lah. so yeah. that was that.

Today

Trained in school with casey and saati. coach wasnt there as training is kinda over for the season but hey. allcomers is on 10th on jan. so got zehnder to kinda supervise us. kinda died. did bounding for training. gosh. my legs are dead tired. just when i thought i could rest already, zehnder comes up to me and says "shashi, later you gotta do upperbody weights" and im thinking. "WTFRICK'S YOUR PROBLEM" just did upper body yest. and you want me to upperbody again. wth is this! 2 times a day of training?! whatthefrick lah. i cant take it already. but who cares. its all to train and hopefully qualify for whatever games or wadev. so yeapps/

well thats kinda it. now im stoning. well going for lunch soon well actually now. soooo seeya.. ps. i wana cut my hair. hmph, nvm. bye:)

The fire to keep me warm

2008-12-19T20:30:00.000-08:00

BOO. ok.these few days have been pretty shit for me. and when i mean shit i really do cos training has been flopped all over the place as in ive just been screwing up everything. well ive got 2 pieces of news. one good and one bad. one good being a got a new 100 PB - 11.95secs. like finally ive gone below 12secs. i mean its slow but nvm. im a JUMPER okaaay. but nvm. since im a jumper, i should be jumping far shouldnt i? but guess what. my long jump was 4.85m! someone help me?! ok. my first jump was actually 6.1+- butt my whole body fell back so coach measured from the 5.1 place. i mean like whathehell. i cant be just jumping 5.1? its like 1+m off my PB. okk anyway, mums calling me for lunch. will edit the post when im back.

You can only blame your problems on the world for so long.

2008-12-18T04:36:00.000-08:00

I cant explain a thing now. im just bored. parents came back with tons of chocolates. whee. but well i feel like eating power gel now just for fun. i believe tht im screwed for 09. i dont feel like making a transition into the new year. it just feels so cosy as it is. no change wanted ;). heh. but oh well. actualy i have no idea what i should blog about now. theres pretty much nth to blog about now.

well. went to alex's place today. wii-ed alot. pretty fun i guess. im having a freddo chocolate now. yum. wth. im seriously hooked on folie a deux now. no idea why. but seriously i am. should i leave this post short? hmm. anyway tomorow theres training. shit. we're doing jumps. i dont wana know how shit im jumping. and then theres allcomers. frick. all this sucks right. but nvm. whattheheck. just train and see what happens. if the result is good then good for me if it sucks then i jusr suck and have to accept tht i suck.

ok. i think ill leave it short. and im off to get kinder bueno which i just bought. bye.

folie a deux?

2008-12-16T03:25:00.000-08:00

folie a deux. hmm. fobs new album title. well, im pretty glued to thius album. the songs are pretty good. or at least thats my thought. hmm. right now im on to reading a series called "Switchers". pretty interesting i guess. if u wana read it then ur more than welcomed to. dont know if you can get the series from singapore anyway cos my aunt bought them from london but well yeah. right now, sis is looking for her smth and is invading the bed im on right now.

okay. training tomorow. speedwork! yipee. i wana find out if my speed has improved at all. hopefully it has. yeah well on to my next worry. i dont know why but i feel like im not improving in track at all. like yeah. like im gona burn out. i know. i dont know why! i mean like i only jumped 12.89! wth man. havent reached 13 in a competition yet. ah that stinks big time. but i realy wana achieve smth by next yr. and for the long jump, coach is teaching me the hitch kick and im like i dont think i can very much use it. i rather just use the hang ya know. but nvm. im gona hit 6.7 by next nationals and by end of next yr that magic 7M is gona be mine. somehow but it will. i hope. TRAIN HARDER SHASHI. okay. whatever i said just now is bullshit. just dreams. but forget it.

okay gtg for dinner now! Cya! and oh yeah. got my good progress and EAGLES award today! whee. 300bucks just like tht.

back

2008-12-09T01:15:00.000-08:00

hey. im back from PSG, canberra, aussieee. okay so well. it was great. everything as whole was just pretty fun. okay. i wont blog the whole trip cos its like 11days and i dont think i can remember lots bout it. so well just focus on the main stuffings.

DAY1

landed in sydney. all were tired and stuff like tht. then took a bus down to canberra bush capital lodge. its shit there. roomed with syafiq, chin hwee, chin hui, sean and zachary. pretty fun. so everyone just wanted dinner and sleep so thats what we did. dinner was fish and potato and dessert was apple crumble. as a whole dinner sucked.

DAY2

okay. the sewimmers, basketballers and hockey people arrived. everywhere was packed. had dinner, pool. had chicken and rice.

DAY3

whee. opening ceremony. omg. it sucked. it was so damn hot and everything. but nvm. that was that.

DAY4

i think it was training that day.l cant remmemb. so trained and all

DAY5

chin hui and piriyah's race. chin hui got knocked outta finals. lol. piriyah owned. yeapps

DAY6 - DAY __

Cant remmber

My triple jump DAY

warmed up well and everything. reported and then got a shock of my life cos everyone there was 1.5heads taller than me. kerazyyyy. well yeah. uhh. 1st jump 12.73. shit man! that was like a 13+ jump but took off like 30-35cm away from thre board. :(. next jump- 12.26. screwed up. next jump lost my balance and last jump 12.89. overall i cfame in 4th. *claps* for my effort. *boos* for the shit performance. but nvm. i had fun and a goofd experience.

i rather not talk about my long jump.

CLOSING CEREMONY

DANCE PARTY. wheeee. it was awesome. plain awesome. evrything. swapped shirts and all.

spent a day in sydney. went to Y Hotel. roomed with POH. and then next day. flyyy to singapore in A380. lol. and here i am. well im off now! CYA

Greetings From Aussie

2008-11-28T01:22:00.001-08:00

eh hi. im in bush capital lodge in canberra now for psg. and shit. just had dinner. i wouldnt say the food is exactly great -_-. nvm. so well today was filled with sleeping sleeping nd more sleeping and bus rides. sitting in front of the computer now and its superr lag-ish. ah. kinda wish i was home? well mainly cos food at home is better. heh. but anyway i dont know what to do. just wana rest i guess. people behind playing pool. im using a stupid computer. ok. tomorow there's training. gona die. must adapttt to the weather. ok lah. i think i shall go now. keep coming to my blog. ill keep it updated*wink*

Because tonight will be the night

2008-11-27T03:18:00.000-08:00

OMG. hey. i dont wana leave singapore. im going to the airport in like ONE HOUR. leaving for pacific school gamess. im damn nervous cos its like off season but whocaress. nvm. well alota ppl have wished me luck. and i think i kinda need all the luck i can get : 0 so well yeah. uh i think im all packed and ready to go. well if any1 needs anything ill just get something for ya people. XMAS is coming people. need to buybuybuy. receivereceiverecieve.

okay. so i dont know what to do now. sitting in front of the screen. stoning. ALOT. but oh well. gotta grab some ice cream b4 i leave tonight. OKAY BYE. dad bugging me now. CYA PEOPLE. dont miss me ;D

hello :)

2008-11-25T07:16:00.000-08:00

hey you! its 11.18 now and i have training tomorow. oh gosh. im so excited! training. whoosh. okay. im only excited cos im taking run up baby. ok. shh. now. today i woke up early in the morning cos mum said she'd take sis and i for breakfast at macs but guess what. i was wrong. she came too late so in the ended up going somewhere else for lunch but nvm. well next up - physio

physio was fine. did my back. my back has been feeling uncomfortable. like to tight and stiff. but well i hope its fine. came back home and guitar-ed around and also stoned.....alot. but well thats a different story. ahha. so i was going cycling t ecp but unfortunately mum couldnt send me so that sucks. and east coast park is super inconveniant to go by bus so i had to cab there. the taxi driver kept on going on about how the food at the hawker centre was very good. apparently the wanton mee and hokkien mee is good. go try. lol! im trusting tht uncle so yeah.

arrived at ecp. rented a bike. the guy asked if i had a budget so i said no and so he asked me to try their new bike which they had just brought in that morning so i agreed. 10mins later i brought my bike back to the shop as the chain had some problem. guy fixed it. cycled for 5metres. had the same problem. after that it was fine. then cycled alott. it was tiring. then raced clara and i beat herrrr by 5cm. yeah. i think that was what killed me. but whattheheck. my quads were tired. now im stoning in front of my computer and im going to sleep now! so goodnight!

i came here to make you dance tonightttt

2008-11-21T22:17:00.000-08:00

hoho. helloooo. okay. im going to watch madagascar2 later. so cool right. i think im like one of those ppl who havent watched it yet. ah. nvm. okay. well.im.pretty.darn.bored. okay stop it. listening to light on now. omgosh. im addicted to the song guilty pleasure. no idea why. last time when i listened to it, it was like some normal song but now its apparently damn nice. muahah. munching on a mars bar. yummy. okay. well im damn bored now. waiting for mum to come back with more sweets and chocs. heh. drinking rootbeer float now. yummy again.

ive got like nothing to say now cos ive done hardly anything. talking to wai synn about alotta things. so yeah. pretty cool. now im thinking alot. thinking bout my subject combination. woo. mum's back. ice creamm! yay. okay. i want a new phone. my phone has been dropped like alot. so a new one would be good. 8.1megapixelxzxz. iwant the sony ericson c905. but well see first. okay. im off!

Jumbotron Gag Reel

2008-11-20T03:58:00.000-08:00

good greetings one and all. =D. well. what been going on this week. noth ing much actually. cobra starship-ing now. ahah. okay. well lets see what happened.

SPORTS CONFERENCEEE. whoo. so it starte off at stupid-licious 7.15 in the morning. it caused me to wake up early and i really dont like waking up. okay so. headed to the PAC. helped out in registration and well once all sports were registered, it was time to go! so entered the PAC and listened to 2 lectures. i thought the first guy was damn interesting and i really thought what he said bout sport and etc. was pretty true but enough bout that nonsense. what was even more nonsensical was tht the 2nd guy who lectured us was damn boring cos he kept talking bout ONLY superrr long distances. hellooo! there were other sports there too. but who gives a crap. no1 really cared bout him.

Tea breakkk. went to tanglin cc with zongyang,zhiwei and casey. we only had 10mins to buy things and come back. lol but in the end we were late but so was evry1 so it didnt make much of a diff. so yeah had some rollercoaster rings and kinder bueno to much during the next segment. heh.

Trip to singapore YOG learning centre. whoosh. this was my fav. part. cos it was actually pretty interesting. lotsa facts learnt and stuff like tht. LOL. but well overall pretty cool. good luck damai sec. LOLOL. inside joke. nvm. but well. saw the olympic medal and paralympic medal. pwetty cool. oh yeah. also held the torch which some guy held in Beijing 2008. pretty darn awesome huh. ahah. okie. then waited for a realllyyyy long time for the bus to arrive. okay when we alighted the bus it was all over.

well. tomorow im doing my run up. finally.forgot about it actually. =o but nvm. now i know so yeah. leaving next weel. omgosh. damn scared. i can do it! cmon. self motivation here. a little help? heh. okay..so im pretty scared tht ill underperform. but to heck. hope to buy some stuff there =DDD. ahaha. and ill see what i can get for ya guys. like a little smth. lol. just say if u want anything.lolllllllllll. okk. well ima go lie down on the NEW BED. hehe. okay bye/

Shoot'em Up

2008-11-19T06:28:00.000-08:00

hey people. casey's shocked im blogging? well damn him :) well uh something happened today. not saying what. well yeah. i kinda feel more welcomed now =D but well anyway, talking to robert, zongyang, casey and timothee now. OKAY now time to apologise.

SORRY LA TIMOTHEE!

LOL. cos of the thing where he was praising himself excessively or something like that. well anyway sorry la. he sounded quite pissed anyway. so i watched bruce and lloyd today. LOL damn funny but i thought get smart was even funnier but well yeah. uh. filled up some johari window for zongyang. go to his blog and check it out. click ont he "HERE" under his wants so yeah. PS: dont use my link cos its wrong. go to casey's then his =P. okay well.

Learnt the guilty pleasure dance. LOLOLOLOL. awesome shit man. but well yeah. im kinda bored now. tomorow there's sports conference. hmm long pants or short pants? ah short pants then. ahha. okay well cya ppl!

i dont care

2008-11-18T02:55:00.000-08:00

good evening folks. lol?okay. im currently listening to i dont care by FOB. definitely an awesome song yet again by the band. after listening to a number of songs from fob's new album, i have come to a conclusion tht their genre of music is like shifting but well thats my opinion.

okay. well. zuriel is emo-ing to me now. first time hearing tht eh? lol. okk. well im starting to use photoshop again. heh. its quite okay actually. fun to use at times. annoying at times. but well its all about the learning process right. and yay. friendster is back up and working fine.im feeling abit dizzy now. no idea why. well now im pretty darn bored . okay well u noe what. i think ima go now since i got nth to talk bout. well then CYA

336!

2008-11-14T02:01:00.000-08:00

336! here i come. okay. well here are the subs im takingg.

English

E math

A math

Bio

Chem

Phys

Elective hist.

Social studies

Malayyy(screwed)

kk. well im kinda happy im going to 336! my target when i first came into sji was top 6 classes anyway. well great improvement for me :). and well now the next step is o' lvls. where i promise myself i WILL do well. i think kind of why im in 336 and not the others is mainly cos im not like exceptionally good in one subject? so theres no TDP for me. so yeah. but hell yeah. 336. thats like damn good for me i think. i mean like having to balance track and studies and all. im happy.

okay. now my only HUGE worry is that the peeps in my class are damn like the screwed kind. like all those no-lifers. but whats there to do. I CANT BELIEVE IT. rishi is in my class. like what the hell. someone pls help me. im gona faint. hes rishi! ah damn. well so far i noe robert and isa are in my class. dont know who else =O. well, right now 334 seems like a pretty good class to go too. well they also have wira who'll always give a good laugh by well simply screwing the teachers up. heh. well.. im just real happy. if you work hard, you achieve what u get! =D

Bar-ba-sol

2008-11-13T06:50:00.000-08:00

hoho! im listening to bar-ba-sol now. david cook. lol. i kinda like the song. heh. but i prefer light on to that song. well anyway, i like the title - bar-ba-sol. cool huh. aaha! well. these past few days have not really been going well for me but right now there are 3 words in my head which keep on repeating itselves. "I'll Be Back". ill be back for more further and further jumps but things havent really been going well for me. like everything. ive been told not to think too much?

Do i think that much? ah. i dont THINK i think that much. heh. okay. im feeling kinda down now cos im reviewing the past. since p4. evrything up there in my head. just flows through my mind. ahh. its actually pretty good to sit down on the swing and just swing on it and u feel free. like anything or anyone u wana be and it helps u get ur mind off stuff.

well. ive been looking at some cool phones. interested in the samsung innov8. its pretty darn awesome. 8 megapixel camera baby. ahha. well i think dad should allow. its just abit pricyyy. ah. but nvm. i need a new phone anyway. although my current phone is only 1 year old, it looks like its been used forever as its all scratched and well scratched. xD. Righht. its like one the only times im using this "axe dee" thing. alex uses kinda alot so tried using it. ahaa. okay. hes greatt. and sometimes helps me with my problems buttt sometimes its kinda hard to tell him cos sometimess its like i just cant tell him. but nvm. i tell casey alot of my problems too and well he sure helps me but most of the time i get stupid solutions. -_-. but right now all the things goin through my head right now,i i havent really told any1 except one. but shes a girl and wellllll its kinda diff conveying ur probs. to girls. no idea why but yeah.

ohkay. i decided to do a quiz. got it off casey who got it off zong yang but nvm.

Copy and paste to your own journal, erase my answers, and add your own. Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real places name and/or objects, nothing made up. Try to use different answers if the person you got this from has the same initials as you.You can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

MY NAME-- Shashi!
1. Four letter word – Safe
2. Boy name - Shawn
3. Girl name – Susan
4. Occupation - Santa Claus. hoho
5. Color - Silver
6. Something to wear – Shirt.
7. Beverage – Spritee
8. Food – Sushi. lololol
9. Place – Singapore(took me time to think of this one)
10. Something found in bathroom – Shaver. okay actually. SOAP or SHAMPOO
11. Reason for being late – uh.....sleeping.

12. Something you shout – Shit!. Shuddup!
13. Font – Script
14. TV show – scrubs!
15. Song Title – So What - Pink. ahah

DONE. cool right. my answers are damn awesome. thanks. thanks very much. okay. well

tomorow is PSG departure meetinggg. ah. when i got our attire, i realised tht the round neck shirt is kinda big for me. i hate being short and small. i tried getting XS so it would be just right or if not tight fit. but i got S instead and its uber baggyyy. but nevermind. im kinda dead tomorow cos i have no idea where the auditorium in CCAB is. just gotta find my way i guess. after that its CLASS POSTINGS. another thing on my minddddd. ok well. ima take off now. i feel kinda crap. ill try to sleep it off and well think less. i guess trying to think less is a better solution than jumping down into a swimming pool huh. okay well. see ya guys

Why

2008-11-11T05:39:00.000-08:00

hey guys. iknow lotsa people dont come here but nvmind. im kinda in a down mood now. thinking bout evrything. and friday is "judgement day" for us. class postings. ah. but nvm. im kinda worried for my track stuff now. apparently im distracted from it. no idea why but robert seems to think so and how my attitude from june has kinda changed towards track. oh gosh. i dont know why. my commitment is still there!

TRACK TRACK TRACK

i cant really live without it. it brings me up when im down like now and well yeah. okay. so went over to alex's just now and went to the swing and talked. had some ice cream too. so we just kinda talked bout stuff. and well recently ive been thinking bout lotsa things and i dont know whats up with whatever im doing. okaaay shit. but yeah. my jumps aint going too well now. screwing alot up. my triple's fine. just scared of the long. : 0 but ill try my best for PSG.

OKAY. next up was training. did plyo/;jumps stuff today. triple jump drills basically. thank god there was no pain on my ankles this time. maybe cos i had physio this morning but well yeah. i felt good in training tht my triple was coming out well. i hope to break 13.3 at pacific games but well ill try. so well yeah. im pretty scared for PSG cos canberra's weather is cold and how on earth am i supposed to jump in tights and a jersey when its so cold. but nvm. adrenaline should help. well thats all. cya :)

ay okay

2008-11-09T04:58:00.000-08:00

hey. im bored now. like always. well, i watched transformers and some other movie drill sumthing taylor or something like that. cant rememb. well it was okay i guess. i really got nothing to do nowadays. i mean like everyone is at ACE camp. but nvm.

well yesterday was good. went to east coast to cycle with alex. yeah. had an okay time. but i swear i was dead tired and i cycled so little. real tiring man. but without training i think ill be some crazy fat guy. lol. okay. listening to why by seconhand serenade now. i got nothing to do. someone help.

okay. i just got an idea after looking at the example labels for the post from blogger.com. LOL. okay. so it says Labels for this post:e.g. scooters, vacation, fall. OKAYY. so it says vacation. and well this dec. im not really going for holiday anywhere.(THANKS MUM) cos mum has to finish up with lotsa assignments so she cant really go away for too long so my family is kinda stuck on going to bali. sigh. but theres always PSG i guess where i get to go to canberra? thats pretty good aint it? but ah. im worried ill embarass myself there and jump like bad distances man.

At least i wont embarass myself like those people at the subaru car challenge thingy. i mean its kinda embarassing if you get through and play the game and your like the first 200 to drop out. man. its gotta suck but its okay. cos i mean like trying is best right? well we'll wait and see which retard wins the competition. haaha. okay. im done. sis birthday today. Happy 13th Birthday :)
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piss off someone more

2008-11-07T04:18:00.000-08:00

okay. im was in the mood to piss someone off badly and i was succesful at it. but like long story la. and now im hated by that person but who gives a shit bout that right cos i hated that person in the first place so i got pissed. yeah well. ive been told that i should use paragraphs in my blog so i shall.

okay. well there was training today. 150m X 6. sounds prety easy huh. but i swear i died. and that zong yang was breezing through. no surprise cos hes zong yang but nvm. so yeah. im damn scared for PSG(too bad if you dont know what it is) now cos like i havent been training well and neither have i been performing well. i mean like nvm. dont wana talk bout it. so lets see what im doing now

1) on msn.

2)blogging

3)listening to music

4)trying to find something to do besides cycling(ahem). nvm

okay. so yeah. uhh what else happened. oh yeah that ivan guy or whatever came around taking pics with EVERYONE for some rihanna contest. it was mad. crazy. really retarded.

watched 007 today. awesome man. the action was great. so yeah. james bond never dissapoints me now does it. ahh i was thinking and that 14 nov. is already coming and thats like our class posting man. so freakyy. so scaryy. okay well i shall go find something to do now. CYA

im sureee

2008-10-27T07:17:00.000-07:00

ok. u noe what. ive realised tht i cant remember my own blog URL. i mean like i keep on remembering it as insultedbycompliments. AHH. pisses me off. so evrytime i wana check my blog i always go to casey's blog and then mine. cos addictedtothat seems alot easier. but thats a diff story. so well now im damn bored. listening to hot n cold. talking to bryan lum? hassanal? and timothee yap? uh yeah. im pretty much lost in all 3 convos. cos hassanal and i have kinda realized tht we were K1 classmates! and bryan and my convo is pretty much dead and timothee is just praising himself. uhuhh. i have no idea what to do anyway. well lets see. i just ate some cadbury ZIP thing. no idea what tht is. and im not sleepy at all. but i wana sleep. see. i have no clue on what i wana do. ugh. this sucks. and well training tomorow. and well practically alot of days of training and i dun wana die or injure myself so better take care of my body ya'll. ok. i see a bottle of deoderant. no idea why im talking bout it but its adidas and i cant be bothered to look carefully at the further detail. ahh. kk. ill update my blog again some other time

CONGRATULATIONS

2008-10-20T08:07:00.000-07:00

congrats shashi! its shashi's 15th post! LOLLLLLLLLL. its been like 1 yr or sumthing and only 15 posts? lol! OKAY. so like a post amonth or sumthing liketht. okay well tomorow is the last day of SEC2 MAN. LOWER SEC DAYS ARE GONA BE OVER! so its like tomorow will be the last day of short pants. we'll find out who JJ is tomorow. seriously dont noe. maybe someone who needed to CUT THEIR HAIR *hinthint* ahah! okay. well its gona be a fun day tomorow i guess. we'll see first. and report books. i dont intend to talk bout my results here -_-. well i did reasonably well. i mean I CAME IN AS THE BOTTOM 10 GUYS IN SJI WITH PSLE SCORES. and now i think i should go ot the top 7 classes for trip. science so i feel really good bout myself. like how much ive improved. ppl may call me a "freaking mugger" but hey. im in the 2nd last class and im not exactly the most intelligent person u can find around but at least i try my best in what i do and achieve the best out of it. so its like i may need to study 3 weeks b4 the exams and some guy from 204 maybe needs to study just 1 night b4 the exam but we get the same grades. it just shows tht some ppl are smarter than others and well its just something i have to deal with. and well i feel proud of myself after all ive improved over the past 2yrs and well my parents i think are really satisfied that my hard work kinda paid off so yeah. and now its back to training. im sitting on my bed and my groin hurts. LOL. seriously. dun laugh. it hurts. and well casey seems to think that i went mac ritchie today. what a dumbass. wait till he actually reads this shit. so yeah. and well real run was pretty fun and pretty okay at the same time. well i finally dont feel like shit and now i feel really proud of myself. finally a wonderful 15th(aniversary) post

Screw It Method

2008-10-08T01:21:00.000-07:00

HEY! okay. exams.exams.exams. screw it. i feel like shit. shit.shit.shit. i got nth. okay well i was just having a convo with pong and it was damn funny cos i coudnt really see the connection when some1 links up the name of 2 people and form it as one? okay nvm. but well im down to m.t , bio and maths paper2. frick man. its so damn sian having to go back home and think that you gotta study. should be more like casey - use the screw it method huh. butttt i dun wana screw up. and like so far, all these papers went reallyyy great! so like im kinda hoping that i get 5A's and 1C(FOR M.T) and ya'll will noe if i get it or not cos i fi dont ill cancel this post. LOL. okay. so like i mean ive gotta work my ass off and be a "freaking mugger" for the next week lah. and the day b4 the lit exam i was like couldnt bebotherd AT ALL. i hadnt even finished reading the last act of the text and i was supposed to sit for the exam the next day and i didnt even have quotes. butttt nvm i went into the exam and managed do the question cos the stuff i studied for came out! okay. so like tomorow is m.t and im mugging bio cos im so damn scared for bio cos theres like 10000000000000000000000000000 diagrams to learn and like 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 things to learn. im either gona do well for bio or screw up - make it or break it

EOY'S

2008-09-19T20:03:00.000-07:00

OKAY! hey guys. its been a long time since i last posted. okay. so lets see. listening to check yes juliet right now and i kinda feel like shit. so yeah. so much pressure. i can still feeel the pressure. ok was just listening to paramore aawihle ago. ok so what happened today? umm nth actually cos its morning now. lol. ok yest.? just the same thing. school.school. and more school. after school headed to CCAB for some meeting thing for pacific games and well didnt really waste my time. got to noe more. BUT WTH! its exam period now la! and shit im supposed to be doing weights like NOW but im too lazy to go downstairs to the porch and grab the dumb bells or however u spell it. so yeah. after the meeting took 156 and headed to sch where i met robert. yeah. LOL the encounter he had was FRIGGING FUNNY MAN. okay. lets not talk bout tht. so yeah i was saying. i feel like shit. damn scared for like EVERYTHING right now. okay. maybe not evrything but like EOY'S?! i mean like if i get streamed to some not so good class ill pretty much screw up evrything. so its like studyyyyyyyyyy evryday. and LOL. casey got owned on Muttons 2 days ago for saying tht i study too much and the muttons were like "theres no such thing as study too much" OKAY. I HAVE A PROBLEM. "dont you just hate clocks?" AHAHAH! okay only ppl who reads casey's blog will get tht but yeah I HATE CLOCKS! i mean like i have a huge problem where evrytime i look at the clock, its always like 10 29 OR LIKE 11 29 basically X 29. so it kinda sucks. duno what it means.PROBABLY MEANS THT I SHOULD STUDY COS EXAMS ARE ON 29TH. so yeah. okay. changed song now. woah oh but its a nice song. ok BYE